1 year on <boob pics>

So, it's been a year since I had my boobs done, am I happy? Well, sort of. I still need a nipple lift but can't decide if I want to go thru all of that pain just to have higher nipples only I can see!
I still have the capsular contraction in my right breast, I still think it was due to the infection the hospital dismissed but unfortunately you can't prove things like that can you?
My breasts are now a comfortable 32GG - I can't find bras to fit unless I pay a fortune and the bras which feel most comfortable are the £4 asda sports bras still!
I havnt got myself any new lingerie to celebrate, in fact, iv only actually got practical bras since the operation.
I'm happier than I was with a bilateral capsular contraction but I wish I had waited and thought a little more rather than rush and push my surgeon into something neither of us were that comfortable with. 20/20 hindsight eh.
Couple of pictures for you;
firstly, in one of my old lady bras, sexy ones rarely come in that size!


And released;



Happy birthday to my boobies anyway, everyone else I know thinks they're lovely!

Consultant visit

So I saw the consultant again this evening, he is pretty sure I have a capsular contraction in my right breast (hence it being higher) risk, however outweighs benefit of re-aug...

Annoyed

Sleeping without my bra

Sorry iv neglected you people, iv just had nothing at all to say tbh. My right implant is still very high and going nowhere fast and I'm still annoyed about it.

Today was the first time I wore an underwired bra all day, it killed! This evening I'm going to try to sleep without my sports bra... I can see this too going badly! I'll fill you in (if it's interesting!)

A little pic to show you they havnt really changed;

Two steps forward...

Two steps back? My right implant is still riding very high on my chest wall, the bronchitis I have is also not helping as the coughing is tightening the already very tight muscle gripping my implant!

Iv taken the decision to start wearing my chest band again to try and help it shift down a little, I'm crossing my fingers for this to help. I still have quite severe rib pain too, it's all still quite painful. My skin is really very dry on my breasts/especially my nipples, no matter what creams I put on they stay dry, I know this is my constant wearing of my bra so I'm not too worried.

No pictures as there's no change really.

Boobie update...

So, I'm still in pain, still can't get fifth gear, still can't Reach high shelves...

However, I went bra-less on Saturday to a wedding and although I had to unzip every hour or so and release the boobies, I felt good. It was the first time I have ever confidently gone without a bra. My boobs on Sunday were terrible though, swollen and so painful that I couldn't touch them, I left the wedding relatively early (near on midnight) due to the pain, bra-lessness doesn't go without it's problems at this stage!

I can now sleep on my side (if I pack my boobs with the duvet!) I can hug people and feel pretty ok.

My right breast still hasn't dropped and still looks a little strange.

So, all things considered I'm feeling pretty good. I'd love to wear a pretty bra though!

Wondering if I can manage a massage this week...hmm

Why don't consultants say what you want them to?

I pondered this as I left The hospital this evening, I wanted him to tell me everything would be ok and wave some sort of wand...

What he actually told me was this;

My right breast has a normal amount of swelling and my implant still being quite stuck to my chest wall is normal. My pain level is also normal at 6 weeks. My left breast which had to undergo a little more reconstruction has dropped and my implant is very mobile, this isn't as normal but isn't bad. My muscle isn't gripping the implant on that side so hard. So, I asked which breast was the most like my expected outcome; the right answer was the left one and that's the one he said!

My nipples are quite low still though, he seemed to think he had told me he was doing a full mastopexy, in actual fact he told me he would move my nipples up using local anaesthetic. I don't want a mastopexy really, he had written in the notes that he just wanted to adjust my nipple too! Odd that he didn't remember - am I that forgettable?!

I'm feeling much better today and have popped a little bronzer on from Image Skincare, it's a clinician only product and I must say, I really do like it!

Here's today's pics;







Ooo I have just realised I have abs again!

I'm not sure what's happened but...

As it says, I'm not sure what has happened but my breasts look odd. I'm really unhappy, really depressed about them. I'm still in lots of pain, my right breast is still very swollen and I absolutely hate the shape of it. My nipple is so low I feel like a ninety year old woman.

So, I don't think I will escape without having my nipples moved up, which is a shame.

I see the consultant tomorrow, perhaps he can shed some light on why they look so weird, are still really swollen and why I'm in so much pain. I still can't sleep on my back, my bra still rubs my suture lines so I have to wear gauze over them and I feel crap.

Here's some pictures, enjoy. (crappy 6week birthday to my boobies)